Shriekie-chan

i'm awful. i deserve a kick in the face. "mean people suck", i say, but i do believe that i've become the mean one. what a waste. what bad decisions i made. such petty priorities taken. but what do i care? everything is over. everyone i cared about is gone. what do i do now? still can't figure it out. oh well, i've got some time. this thing, right here, is obsolete. i never come here.

OR I'LL HATE YOU FOREVER FOREVVVVERRRRR, YOU HEAR ME? THAT'S RIGHT. SAY IT. "GOOD LUCK, PHOEBE" because i'm really going to need it because i have a feeling that just raw talent won't be enough. audition time tomorrow. and i have a cold, to add to the drama (no pun intended). i'm so nervous. oh, sheetz street. ]: i just want a part in this on the stage... because i need to prove myself. yeah.

I woke up at 3:45 again this morning. Couldn't get back to sleep, because, as you should know, once I'm awake I can't sleep again until I have a good reason to be tired. This happens like 2-3 times a week and it's really annoying. I don't know why it happens. I even looked up sleeping disorders and none of them are close to my problem. I mean, I went to sleep at like 10:30 which to me, is a reasonable time to go to bed if you intend to wake up at six in the morning. But I think I have a sleeping disorder. Either that, or a lot of problems. Hmm.